Posted by Lilith on September 19, 2010
AYOKO NANG MAGSULAT.
Nakakapagod. At mahigit isang linggo na akong may sakit dahil sa stress. At may hindi pa nagbabayad. Baka tama ang sabi ni C. Kung mas nakakapagod pala ang ganito, bakit di na lang ako bumalik sa normal na office work?
Posted by Lilith on September 17, 2010
Well, I’m this close to adding another one to the list. I’m trying not to…but he’s making it pretty tough for me, being charming, and flirty and all. ;p I’d be lying if I said that he has no effect on me whatsover.
There was Goliath, then The Devil, then the Black Balloon, and finally The Stranger.
Now what do I call YOU?
The Scorer? The Spanish List (that’s the meaning of his surname)? Ewan, ayoko pang isipin. Basta cute ka. Masaya na akong may kilig akong nararamdaman kahit konti. Hindi pa din ikaw si The Stranger, though. ;p
Posted by Lilith on August 24, 2010
Emotions are volatile, tricky little things, and so we all know they are anything but creatures of logic. But, I am starting to realize, we can choose who these emotions can smolder, even if it were just in secrecy. In the privacy of your mind. I, for instance, have chosen to love and be in love with YOU. In utmost secrecy from YOU.
I admit that it’s a coward’s way out. Let this fire out-sparkle the one that has kept me in happy perdition for more than a year already. If I choose to make you the center of all these intense emotions, albeit it being unrequited, I know I will be able to really save myself.
I will be in pain because of this choice. But I will be safer.
Posted by Lilith on August 22, 2010
The truth is, although I’ve been pining for you for the past few months, I will never ever risk making a direct move to see if you would reciprocate. I wouldn’t dare asking you out. I wouldn’t even dare flirting with you. I’m contented that you remain a concept to me.
The truth is, even if you don’t know it, you have been a source of strength. Your “concept” has kept me sane for the past few months. And that is why I wouldn’t risk being rejected by you because I am quite sure it would devastate me.
The truth is, I’m just leaving it all to God, or the universe, or fate, or whatever, but I wouldn’t do anything to make you mine.
Mangangarap na lang ako. Mas masayang mangarap kesya ma-reject.
Posted by Lilith on August 21, 2010